Closets are for clothes not people, so I have decided to write about me and about who I am. When I was younger I knew I was different from other boys, and grew up in an era when it was taboo to be who you really were. That being said I have always had a feminine side which doesn't mean I wanted to be a woman.
Ever since I was a teen I was fascinated by long fingernails and high heels. It took nearly 30 years later, when South Africa hailed in a new government and a new constitution that I realised I must be who I am meant to be. It took a near death experience in 2004 when I was diagnosed with colon cancer and became a survivor. It was then that I realised that I had been given a second chance at life and so I started doing what I had always wanted to do. It is sad when people start concerning themselves with the way people express themselves. I was brought up in an era where boys had to wear blue, play with toy cars, have a girlfriend, and get married. Well I had a doll, even played with my sister's barbie. In my teens I even tried on my mother's high heels when she was out shopping. Let's just say that was a thrilling experience!
I have always liked long fingernails, and had my first manicure in 2004. It's now 12 years later and I am still going to the same lady manicurist. Just recently I've been painting my nails, and this week I had a long over due pedicure and decided to have my toenails painted.
In about 2000 I started to try my hand at drag, and appeared quite good at it. Since 2004 I have appeared twice in drag at Durban Pride, and once at at drag birthday party. And where to from here? I must stress that I don't intend to transition, I am quite happy being a dragqueen. And a gay one at that! I admire the transgender community, especially those who now identify as female. It does take time to get ready every day especially getting dressed 24/7. We dragqueens put on makeup etc maybe once a month. I can imagine how time consuming it is to be a female full time.
As for me I identify as a feminine male, meaning I still look male but with feminine traits......long nails and long hair.
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